Hanging with Jesus

Will I ever cease to be stunned and deeply angered and grieved at those christians who pounce on and stomp on and then chew up and spit out other people?!? Sometimes it seems as though I spend more time ministering to those who have been mistreated by other christians, than those who have had to endure the pains and hardships of the world and the so-called ungodly! What is WRONG with these christians!?! What bibles are they reading, and where is thier relationship with my JESUS?
Today was my last day at the preschool that I have worked at for 2 and 1/2 years. I turned in my resignation 2 weeks ago. Three days ago, I sat with a fellow employee, and sister in the Lord, and listened to her share with me how afraid she was that I was leaving, and how she now would be left to fight off for herself the attacks of the other employees. She shared with me how, on this particular day, they had many unkind words directed at her and how they were shunning her, as she tries to do her job with the children. Here is my sweet precious friend, crying and pouring her heart out, broken, torn, and afraid, and deeply wounded, again, by this pack of women; and the "leader" of this pack is a pastor's wife!
I am crying right now as I see again the look in my friends eyes...the bewilderment and confusion, the pain of being unjustly attacked by so called ' friends ' ; of being abused... of being rejected!
I wonder how and I wonder why... and then I think of my Jesus. HE knows how, and HE knows why. HE was there, and we were there with Him!
Thursday night as I lay in bed, talking to the Lord about my friend, I suddenly saw myself on that cross with Jesus! So real was it to me that I could feel the warmth of His Blood as it began to cover my body! I felt all of the pain, the grief, the anguish, the terror, the abuse, the rejection... all that I have suffered, and all that my friend was suffering, right there, flowing over me with Jesus's Blood, and I remember telling Him that "I can't bear this; this is too much!!" It was gruesome and horrible and unspeakable, and I don't have the words to describe the intensity of what I saw, or what I felt, but when I told Him I couldn't bear it any longer, HIS Love came over me so intensely and I felt Him drawing me closer to Him, and saw myself clinging closer to Him, on that cross, with His Blood still pouring out, but now it no longer felt hard to bear, but instead was so comforting, so healing, so REAL! !
I know that He showed me this, openly and vividly, because I needed to SEE HIM THERE! Just like I now see my friend, just like I see myself, just like I see you, and them, and everyone! HE was there, and we were with Him! HE is here, and STILL with us! If we don't continually see Him on that cross , we won't be able to bear anything of true value, that will be advancing the Kingdom of our Father! Of our Jesus! We need to, we MUST, bear one another up in our individual battles and struggles! Jesus had compassion on that cross! He had mercy and forgiveness and love and encouragment!! He bore us up!! Each and every one of us, individually!
**This blog entry has been edited from the original post of yesterdays(26th) entry. I hesitate to share, with many, the intimate times that I have alone with Jesus, but this I am sharing with you, because I believe most of you know my heart, and this is the purpose of my blog.
I would like to encourage all of you, at some point today, to find a quiet place and get alone with God. Close your eyes and see Jesus hanging on the cross! Meditate on that. And then next, put yourself right there with Him! If you can do that, I believe Jesus will show you things, and take you to a place, a relationship with Him, that you have never been or had before! I know that He did this for me thursday night!
Please lift my friend Debbie up in prayer, and all those that you know of today who need encouragment and strength, and the love of Jesus to overflow into thier lives! Let's bear one another up! Let's keep on hanging with, and hanging onto, our Jesus!!!